thebarbiesoldier-deactivated201 asked: did you get my reply? how are things, honey?

o yes i did sweetie! i think that we sort have stumbled across each other, both being or have been in the same situation. its - well - it’s so hard to keep control for any amount of time, but today has been better. the busier i make myself the less i think about filling the bloodstream and blocking the brain. 

gosh, you were hospitalized? for how long? you seem better now though, which is such a good thing. you also have a boyfriend?

two of my friends were admitted to A&E last friday because of an overdose. stomach pumping. eughh. i feel ashamed to have been there and, although i was hardly in a state to be acting responsibly, i still feel guilty for allowing them to do such a thing. that girl has already been banned from the houses of residence and is only allowed to come into school on an isolation rota…..i have no idea how other schools deal with such things but the private education system makes it HELL. and they don’t even know the half of it.

my family are amazing though. my own mother had her own fair share of narcotics in her youth, but then married my father and has said nothing of since. i think she’s scared of admitting her past in the circles which my parents mix (incredibly stuck up) she knows that alf and i have a spliff now and then but i’ve kept her in the dark about a lot of it. my father, well, he’s not the type of father you would want to talk about a drugs problem, there would most probably be a disownment or something. my elder brother has much of the same problems but i don’t see him a lot ‘cause he’s at med school, and is as stoned as much as i usually am. that leaves my seven year old little sister who is just too perfect to involve with any of this, she’s still a devout founder of the ‘magical people society’ and i wouldn’t be able to live with myself after ruining any of that innocence. 

i’ve written a lot more than i’d intended honey!! you don’t realize how much it means to me to have someone to talk to, who seems to have come out of the other side of this horrible horrible place. i think it would destroy alf if i discussed my problems with him yet again :)

love to you. all my wishes for your future endeavors xxxxxxxx