MONEY!

my parents decided to be unduly pleasant,  you might know i’ve limited my bank withdrawals as to not spend too much money on things i shouldn’t be buying. well, they only went and opened me a new account  with a start up value of £5000!!!!!!!!!!!! when questioned on their motivations to do such an insane thing, mother replied 

“We are aware of your recent increase in maturity, we’ve always wanted you to grow up by yourself and have allowed you to make your own mistakes. We knew about your drugs and substance abuse, even when you tried the hardest to keep it from us. By avoiding intervention we hoped that you would eventually realize the damage these things do to you, your life, your relationships, your family and friends. Learning this now, whilst still in a safe environment, was the only way we believed you would learn. We allowed you to crash, having faith that you, our daughter, would have the strength and the awareness to pull yourself out of the tangle. Both your father and I, have agreed that you are now fully recovered. Felicity, I can’t even begin to tell you how proud we both are, we risked a lot, giving you free reign. Without knowing, you have proved yourself as an adult and this is our gift to you, to do with whatever you want. We know you’ll chose wisely darling. I Love you.”

oh my fucking god. they knew!!! both of them!! all along they allowed me to do all those terrible things!! what’s most amazing, is that they believed i would have the sense to curb my addiction, to stop it all. my parents really did risk a lot, what if i never did stop? what if i had just ended up a drop out junkie? they always did have some strange parenting techniques. that response came as such a shock to me. unreal.